two years back when i was kind of into a very bad phase of my life emotionally a lot of work got messed up and work things turned out to be very bad
for a very long time i was convincing myself that those things that happened emotionally were the reason behind all the work stuff going down
but now when i actually think about the current phase of my life where comparatively most of the things are very good yet the work things are or can be fall down easily now
now that i am really thinking about it
now i know that those events happened two year back were nothing at all causing the work fall
it was my decisions that made it happen
it was my laziness and my will to put all load onto those events and not carry it myself
it was me who was the reason
if that is not the truth then i would not have been dealing with same things even now when most of the things are quite better than good
excuses yes
reason no