and it’s not going to happen anytime soon
i am trying to come here and start typing and put in my words here since my birthday – which was like 3 months from now exactly
but
it never happened
cz i wanted to have that post to be like a real calm and happy one so that i can start over the next 25th version of the life with something good
and
its not like that i was never happy in this 3 months
maybe a lot i was – but i was never calm
as i am chasing a lot of things
as i am leaving a lot of things
and i am learning and going through lot of the things
in the process, it consumes me
and it is all i want
now that i am thinking – i understand why RITUALS matters
like not the cultural ones
but the simple ones which you can say
few out of the box or not so regular things that you do on certain ocassions
it matters
even like the small rituals of
coming down here every single day for 3.5 mins and start typing out whatever is there in head
or
just noting down some calculation you did for your long term plan in your diary after dinner everyday
or
going to a certain temple every week of the day
all that matters!
to keep you aligned with YOURSELF!
these all things are not for anyone else but for yourself
the life becomes better when you start doing what you promise yourself you would do.
you don’t need it very hard or any other way
you can have it your own way – you just need to be LOYAL to yourself
this is my reminder to have a ritual for myself where i want to have some things like
- daily writing here
- making notes whenever something interesting catches my attention
- at least move your body for couple of minutes with high intensity
- have a money calculations at least weekly to track and plan
- have a sesssion with yourself to plan the business
- have a sessions with yourself for yourself
- ability to be alone very often and just be
this is the care of yourself that you want to do for yourself and not anyone else is needed cz when you are a person like me
it does not feel good
you have to be you!